Same too. Everytime i thinking for money i get demotivated and get upset myself.
I thinking maybe try to be a shitty streamer who play shit game.
If i wanted that i will not just for money, but also learn to communicate with people and play obscure game that i played us kid like Alawar publisher games and maybe show process of drawing and music making us well and some like Vargskelethor did about exlpore OS.
For video essay i have idea for short retrospective about Birdz 1998, Jets n Guns and video game music that listen us a kid before i knowing of internet in 2011 like Spore, Worms 3D era, TAGAP and more
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I hope it all works out for ya. I (at one point) wanted to try and make profit off of my art, but I eventually decided to just draw for the heck of it and stop caring about anything else. I DO hope you're able to find out something that works for you eventually though if you still want to pursue an art career. There's not much I can do, but I still vote on your stuff if that helps. :)