Hey everyone, this is like... A sort of update? I don't even know what I am about to write down, just a way to let out some stuff and to let y'all know what's being going on.
The best word to describe everything lately is just... Aimless. I just finished University, just waiting to get my papers and shit, and well, I am currently hunting down jobs, but I have been struggling with my social anxiety, it is not easy feeling my brain being like "Maybe I shouldn't bother them and not send my CV", I hate myself on that regard. However, in the mean time, I have been working on personal projects, I am starting a comic with a couple of friends and also starting one myself, I have been designing lots of characters. I guess I can show some of them, at least mine, the other is a work in progress we rather keep private, or at least, I should ask them first if I want to show em, you know?
These are for my personal comic, I guess I can talk a little more about the premise and the general idea behind it. It is a slice of life comedy of the first two girls, Jam and Ram, two best friends who decided to open a Japanese food restaurant named Eiganjo in their hometown, known as Samahani, a tropical island whose main economic activity is tourism, so they are trying their absolute best to keep their business afloat. If you are an og Garbager fan, you know I used those two girls for a NSFW pic collection, so, I am trying to clean their innocent image, the idea for this plot came to me when I came back to the city I am currently living on cuz of university, going down to my favorite Sushi restaurant just to see a fucking flower shop with a logo done with AI art, and I have seen lots of restaurants closing down, so I decided to write a story of the struggles of these type of small bussineses... In a comedic way, of course! I intend to post a page weekly and post it first on Webtoon and a few days later here on Newgrounds, I want to see if I can monetize my work, so maybe after all pages are posted, I will compile them and put them for sale on either Itchio or Gumroad.
My personal deadline was supposed to be next month, but seeing how things are going, I feel a little aimless, I got the script done, some concept art and character design, but I feel I still lack some stuff, sometimes you wonder... Is this enough? Like, do I, as an independent artist, who understands his limitations and what he needs and doesn't need, me who is basically Solo-ing everything in this project, do I really need that much concept art? For me, yes, yes I do, I literally tried to start the thumbnailing process and then I thought OH FUCK, I haven't even drawn the isle completely, or I don't even know how the streets look, what props they'll be using and shit... So yeah, I don't think next month is possible. But until then, stay tuned, I'll announce it whenever it is ready, hopefully late august-september.
At the same time, I am working on merch, well, mostly stickers and prints, since I am not working right now, I am looking to sell my stuff at cons and artist alleys just to make some extra cash while I'm unemployed, my parents have been very comprehensive on this front and I am thankful for it as I know not everyone has the same luck in that regard. Thanks, mom and dad! Speaking of, shameless plug, got comms open, check them out here! Help out a starving artist!
I stopped art fight for a bit as well, I love the thing, it is like an artsy splatfest, but I gotta admit I kinda burnt out quite fast and easy on the first weeks, and while I was doing my stuff, I did not get that many attacks on me and that sort of disappointed me, after a break, a lot of people drew stuff for me and I am grateful for it! I have seen them, but haven't commented on it. sorry! I'd like to do multiple revenges on them (I even promised a friend I would DO a revenge on him) but I just haven't been in the highest of spirits, the previous stuff I talked about has taken a toll on me.
I also been thinking on doing a short animation, I'm talking a meme of about 9 seconds, but then... After all this, I came to the sad realization... and maybe you too, dear "whoever reads this"... Isn't this a little overwhelming? Job hunting, Two comics, art fight, preparing stickers and prints, commission work, animation... When the fuck am I supposed to work on all this? this is why I said I feel everything on my life right now feels aimless, even if I could say I have my priorities, I still feel bad for draggin projects or not being able to finish stuff on time. I have had so many comic ideas in the past that have never even left the conceptual phase, so, this is important to me, I want to finally take things seriously, specially now that I have "The time". I guess I'll have to settle goals and have a planner. I need to learn how to eat an elephant.
Also, something somewhat related, I feel this is a decision I must let everyone know as I am aware some of you are here because of that, I know my OC Morticia is beloved by many folks around here, and I have drawn a lot of NSFW stuff with her, a lot of people love seeing Abbadon and Morticia have sweet and intimate moments, that's the type of erotic content I love doing, "I don't fuck, I make love" type of stuff, but, I have decided to stop drawing NSFW content of them, I want to keep stuff PG-13 with them, at first I thought just separating my SFW and NSFW accounts was enough, but I want to be professional from now on, Morticia is almost like my mascot, so I want her to be simple and clean (Is the way that you're making me feel tonight). Maybe I could from time to time draw and post something lewd with them here on NG, but outside, nope, I want to keep it just "Cheeky" and "Sly", but not horny or pornographic. But don't worry, I will make OCs SPECIFICALLY for NSFW stuff, and I hope they are a nice replacemente and make Morticia's sexy escapades justice.
Say hi to Mary! I'll draw her in cute and NSFW situations from now on! Hope she is of your liking. I actually came up with her name and backstory in a dream, yes, I am so stressed that I even dream OCs to "Work with".
I guess, that's all I gotta say for tonight, just an update on my life and my plans overall. I won't stop doing what I love, I have come so far to even stop now just because I'm sad, I'll just take a break and shit, I guess, and take it EAAAASY. I restarted playing Shin Megami Tensei III, It's been a while since I have played it, I feel I no longer vibe with it 100%, I stopped liking edgy stuff a while ago, you can even see that I haven't been drawing any scary or creepy shit in a while, I now lean more into happy and romantic stuff, that's why you saw me drawing intimate moments with Morticia and Abbadon, even them kissing and hugging and shit.
TL;DR: That feeling when ADHD at an adult age.